My mom was raised without a mother and it negatively affected her entire life.
My BFF's sister died at 29 and left behind 3 babies, aged 3, 2 & 11 months. This was twenty years ago and I still remember babysitting the kids for the funeral and the 3 year old sobbing asking for her mother.
Even a wonderful father can not take the place of a loving mother.
I think of the Schillettes and it would break my heart for them to lose me (LOL...that does sound so self centered!). But the truth is no one (not even Mr. Schill) loves them like I do. Or can comfort them like I do. Or will fight for them like I do. Or will put them ahead of everything else like I do. I am their greatest advocate, strongest ally and biggest fan. I would literally give my life for them.
I would hate for them to go through life without me in their corner. Plus, having lost my own mom when I was 33, I know what it's like to have to navigate the world without a mother. Even as an adult, life is simply not as bright without her shining light.
So sad for all of you, cap.
Kath